LLI 62 The Discipline of Self-Honor – How to Love Yourself When You “Fall Short”
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Find the written iterations WRITERATIONS here: https://www.facebook.com/hongsang.christmann/
In this iteration of Love Louder, Sang opens a conversation most of us avoid: What happens when we don't meet our own expectations?
With disarming honesty, she explores:
The trap of "making up" for perceived failures
How self-punishment disguises itself as discipline
The difference between honoring your growth vs. clinging to perfection
Why the mind keeps looping in past and future—and how to gently come back
How devotion means showing up, not just in fire, but in softness too
This episode is a grounding balm for creators, leaders, and humans who are tired of betraying themselves in the name of “keeping up.” A reminder that real change begins not with force, but with honor.
“Can you love, respect, and honor yourself—even when you’re not who you wanted to be today?”
Show transcript
00:00:00: iteration number 62 of the Love, Lauderd podcast, iterations on becoming human.
00:00:05: So I did not record for two days, which leads me to this episode today,
00:00:13: which is about honor, love and respect.
00:00:16: Change can only take place when we step out of our comfort zone,
00:00:25: when we step out of the habitual patterns that we have created in our mind
00:00:31: and that the mind is creating for us to navigate the life.
00:00:36: So I'm going to share with you an insight that happened like for the past few days,
00:00:43: for several reasons I did not record two days.
00:00:46: And I wanted you to do this podcast daily and you can hear it in the episode.
00:00:52: So my pattern was, oh, okay, so I have to record three episodes today
00:00:58: to have them published then like one day after another,
00:01:02: which would be just falling into the habitual pattern of mine
00:01:06: to trying to make for something up that I did not do.
00:01:12: Can you recognize in there yourself in there?
00:01:17: When we try so much to make it right and make something right again,
00:01:22: we are so caught up in the past and what has happened
00:01:26: that we actually dishonor ourselves in the moment right now.
00:01:31: It means that we cannot stand by the actions that we took
00:01:36: and the decisions that we made.
00:01:39: So the question today is can we honor, love and respect ourselves?
00:01:46: Still even when we do something that is not according to how we want it to be
00:01:56: and according to our expectation.
00:01:59: And this is one of the hardest things.
00:02:03: One of the hardest things because it does mean to be going against the grain,
00:02:10: to be going against our habits in the first place.
00:02:15: It does not mean really going against them.
00:02:18: It's forging a new pathway and that's what it is.
00:02:26: This is why I decided to just leave it like that,
00:02:29: to have the past two days not being released any episode
00:02:34: and be here with you now.
00:02:36: It's about honoring, respecting and loving ourselves,
00:02:41: honoring, loving and respecting ourselves through any situation,
00:02:45: through all the feelings that we have,
00:02:47: everything that comes up, through being human.
00:02:55: And we are quick to dishonor ourselves, aren't we?
00:02:59: The moment when you do not stand up for what's your...
00:03:04: your belief is, and I'm not saying that you have to rebel, but it just means that you
00:03:12: cave in, that you try to hide, that you try to dismiss your own emotions in situations
00:03:21: that you might think that it is not appropriate to be feeling like that, to be acting like
00:03:27: that.
00:03:28: That is the moment you dishonor yourself.
00:03:30: And the moment you dishonor yourself, it is also the moment you dishonor others in a
00:03:39: way.
00:03:42: You take yourself out of that equation, you do not show up fully, and you do not have
00:03:52: to be like all in high energy, high vibes, everything like Chaka Laka out there.
00:03:59: It's very unique your expression, so it is just about can you be authentic, can you say
00:04:09: no to, and can you say yes when it's appropriate for you, and can you stand by your own experience
00:04:20: of life in that moment.
00:04:23: Can you accept that you are not, maybe you're not there where you wish to be, can you embrace
00:04:31: that for the moment.
00:04:37: Our mind travels so much in the past, and it travels so much in the future that we sometimes
00:04:43: forget that whatever we are feeling, it's taking place right now, which is the crazy
00:04:49: funny thing that it doesn't make any difference for the mind.
00:04:54: What we're feeling is now.
00:04:57: When we make up a scenario where we are afraid of something in the future, we feel it now.
00:05:04: When we think of something that happened in the past, we feel it now, and we can change
00:05:12: that perception.
00:05:16: But can we first and foremost stay with where we are at instead of beaming us right back
00:05:27: in to the past and the future?
00:05:31: Can we embrace where we are?
00:05:32: Can we start where we are?
00:05:35: This is the only way for change, for movement.
00:05:41: Otherwise, you'll be living in a fantasy.
00:05:45: So today's a reminder too for us, for you and for me, to honor, to love, and to respect
00:05:59: yourself, and through that to be loving a little louder.
00:06:04: Lots of love to you, Shan.
00:06:06: [BLANK_AUDIO]
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