LLI#1 Just Start: Bridging Fear and Freedom Through Action

00:00:00: Okay, so about 10 minutes ago, I was asking my partner and husband, like, what do you

00:00:12: think of me podcasting?

00:00:15: I want to start a podcast.

00:00:18: And I realized that I was asking him this because I was unsure if I want to do it because

00:00:28: I was scared.

00:00:29: So I just took some reason to, like, have some more time to discuss it with someone to

00:00:37: just not do it.

00:00:38: So now here I am, like, 10 minutes ago, I was asking my husband and now I'm actually

00:00:46: recording that which is to be the first episode of this podcast.

00:00:53: And it's going to be literally showing what I want to show you is that we are navigating

00:01:01: through life, iterating, and then that there's nothing like the first perfect breath.

00:01:09: And I know this because I've started practicing it.

00:01:14: I've started implementing tiny, tiny changes throughout, like, the days each, like one each

00:01:20: day just to get myself going because now I became a mother about nine months ago and

00:01:31: I had been self-employed before that.

00:01:36: To be honest, my business was never thriving like I wanted it to thrive.

00:01:42: I was never, like, getting the traction, the momentum I wanted to be because I never really

00:01:49: fully showed up.

00:01:50: Like, I think I was kind of wobbly in how I committed because what I was doing is I

00:01:58: ran around and asked people for permission.

00:02:03: I asked people for permission or I just wanted someone else to save me with their opinion,

00:02:10: with their strategy because I was giving my power away and, like, someone else knows

00:02:18: it better.

00:02:19: Now, I'm very, very keen on learning.

00:02:23: I have fun learning.

00:02:24: I enjoy, like, stretching my mind and stretching my ability to, like, handle things emotionally

00:02:34: but also, like, honing my skills.

00:02:38: Yet what I did not realize is throughout the years I've been trying to build a business

00:02:45: and I was still giving my power away and wanted someone else to save me.

00:03:00: Now this might resonate with you or not.

00:03:05: What I can tell is if you have that something, that desire to build a business, to build

00:03:17: something of your own and express yourself as, like, show up as you are, this might be

00:03:23: for you because what I thought was I have to be someone else to actually be successful

00:03:31: in business, to be a successful professional entrepreneur, to do things, like, you might

00:03:41: have heard there are lots of, lots of strategy and tactics and, like, nowadays, like, online

00:03:49: lots of people selling you things, like, because they are convicted for the stuff they do,

00:03:54: they say this is the way you have to do it.

00:03:56: This way or else you're going to, I don't know, your life's going to stall and everything

00:04:01: will shatter into pieces and it's not going to work.

00:04:05: So what I want to find out right now is what is mine?

00:04:12: Like how do I want to do it and what is the business I am building?

00:04:19: Like now is we just moved, like, about three, four months ago to Germany.

00:04:27: I do not have a business.

00:04:31: I have not, I haven't got anything registered or so and this is exactly why I started this

00:04:37: podcast right now because I see that I want to free myself of everything that I thought,

00:04:51: like, this is how you need to do it.

00:04:55: So what we tend to do is, like, when we are learning, we take on someone else's perspective

00:05:05: in addition to ours, but what might happen is that we think that this is the whole great,

00:05:12: that this is the only way that you need to follow and then you're going to be, I don't

00:05:16: know, successful, happy in your relationship or thriving in an abundant, but without that

00:05:23: realizing that it only gets like this fulfilling if you just add it to what is yours already.

00:05:33: For this you have to know yourself and to actually explore what your unique expression

00:05:40: is and this is what we are doing right here right now.

00:05:46: So first lesson is there's nothing that can imitate you, that there's nothing that can

00:05:57: save you or no one that can save you and there's only you who can express yourself like you

00:06:05: do and I'm actually just grasping the thought of it right now and starting to embody it

00:06:10: by recording this podcast because I've never done it before and I realized that there were

00:06:21: several attempts.

00:06:22: Like, I've been a yoga teacher, I taught German as a foreign language, I've been a

00:06:27: coach, there were several careers I pursued besides actually being an air-track controller

00:06:33: for a decade and I did well when I had an employer like someone else telling me what

00:06:42: to do and I did well when I was not actually focusing on building a business, when I was

00:06:51: not focusing on the results of building a business.

00:06:57: This was like for the yoga teacher training because I just started the training to learn

00:07:06: about myself and then it happened to be fun for me to teach and colleagues were interested

00:07:15: because I shared what I did that I was learning and then they started to take lessons with

00:07:21: me and so I resistently got into actually teaching yoga and very similar to teaching

00:07:30: German I just had never in mind like that I have to be successful in a way of like financially

00:07:37: or you know like what you classically connect with doing business.

00:07:43: business. So it just came with so much ease through many, many lessons and many, many

00:07:51: people I'm grateful for that they took the lead to pick me as a teacher because it gave

00:07:58: me the chance of iterating my process of like learning about myself, how to manage time,

00:08:05: how to manage the lessons, how I want to teach and also like I learned that I'm not for everybody.

00:08:13: And in the end, I had only like those people sticking with me that I was like really like

00:08:24: enjoying spending my time with and being paid for it. That was a bonus. It was not the actual

00:08:32: actual main goal. And then it switched to, hey, why not become a coach? And I started

00:08:38: focusing on I have to get results to build this business because otherwise this is not

00:08:45: a business. Like this is the only thing that that is differentiates business from being

00:08:53: a hobby that you get paid for it. And then I over focused on getting paid and getting

00:09:00: clients and yeah, just the goals of business that I sacrificed having fun. And I still

00:09:11: had fun learning to copyright or to to just not just learning but actually practicing

00:09:19: and exploring myself and speaking and training and coaching. But still it was not as with

00:09:28: ease as it was before. And I'm not telling you that you do not have to do hard things

00:09:34: from time to time. It just that was what was hard is was holding myself back. And so here's

00:09:47: the second point I want to tell you like, if there's anything you want to do and for

00:09:52: me, it was building a business for years already. There's like anything that you want to do

00:10:00: in this life science that you just can't get away without doing it. Even if you try, then

00:10:09: do it like take fast action. And you know, I've been discussing this idea like just 20,

00:10:19: 15 minutes ago and like, I was like, okay, how how I want to do it? Like how do I have

00:10:28: to set it up? How what is important to set up a professional podcast? Yeah, like, and

00:10:33: then I, I just realized I'm doing the same thing again, what I did the past four years,

00:10:41: I was overthinking this whole thing. So now we're at like, fuck, I just do it. And we're

00:10:50: going to keep iterating throughout the process. And another difference is to actually fully

00:11:00: commit it like fully commit not to the results, but to this iterative process to the repetition

00:11:13: of certain steps for me, it's going to be this podcast. So I want to bring to you a

00:11:22: lesson in every podcast and every day just to follow curiosity, to explore, to experiment.

00:11:34: And if this is serving you too as well, I'm very happy about it. Like, it's gonna surface

00:11:43: as you listening to me and me sharing with you. So there's a certain freedom that lies

00:11:52: in restriction, if you just finally surrendered it. So if you're a little bit like me, you've

00:12:02: been, you've been trying to force things according to your will. And where it may happen, you

00:12:14: might get some results and that's going to be fun for like the first couple of times,

00:12:20: it's going to be exhausting in the long run. And I'm not here to build this thing in the

00:12:25: long run. So Chiro says, I do not have a business right now. I don't have paid offer. I just

00:12:35: have this podcast. I have my voice. I'm sitting here in our, what's it called, the room you

00:12:45: sleep in, dormitory. I just skip the professional microphone that I actually have to ensure

00:12:53: good quality on you because I do enjoy this well as well. I just took my headphones and

00:12:59: my phone because I needed to overcome. And you might too, you need to overcome this first

00:13:08: fear of doing the thing that you desire that, that resistance that comes in the first place

00:13:20: because if not, you never, you never going to find out. And the thing is like, it's going

00:13:28: to compound in both ways. One is the fear you have. Like you're going to say, Oh, not

00:13:37: now. Oh, no, not tomorrow because you're going to find ways why not to do things. And maybe

00:13:45: you do not feel well or your child is sick or whatever. Like I'm not saying like neglect

00:13:55: your environment or your health because I bet even if your child is sick or you do not

00:14:04: feel well, there's certain things that you still do every day. If you're motivated or

00:14:12: not. So take this as an opportunity to surrender and to surrender to first of all, letting

00:14:23: go of the commitment you take of everything that you thought things, how things should

00:14:36: be and the opportunity that opens up before you when you actually take the first step

00:14:45: and find out. So take fast action, show up as yourself. And yeah, I just hope that serves

00:15:01: you. We're going to get clear along the episodes. This is just the first thing I don't want

00:15:05: to get it too long. It's just too overcoming the first resistance because we're not going

00:15:11: to let it build up. We're going to dive right into it. Lots of love to you. See you here

00:15:18: you next time. Thank you for listening and spending your time with me.

00:15:24: [Take some rest and head back to the lab or you can get a water supply via the internet.]